Just a Thought

Was talking to my mom tonight about feeling promptings from the spirit. How do you know if its the spirit? Then we went onto how converts to the church always just have this amazing passion when they come to church. Full of love, stories, and craving more knowledge. 

I went on to say, well it's amazing to see a converts passion compared to someone who has been in the church for a long time. I feel sometimes for people who were raised in the church, we sometimes don't realize what we have. New members were hungering for the knowledge that we hold. They are so passionate when they join because all this new knowledge is fresh and new. They will study their scriptures & get all these spiritual enlightenments. Then I came to think of it... there's my answer to the first question my mom and I were talking about. 

Promptings become easier to spot when you're fruitfully studying your scriptures, attending church, praying, etc etc. Sometimes when we don't have that passion to thrive and learn more about Christ, promptings from the spirit may be harder to read. Once you start to hunger for more knowledge of Christ and a better relationship, that's when it becomes easier to listen to the spirit and understand what it is saying too.

Just a thought. 

My new desires

This site is FULL of nerdy photo gadgets!! If you love me and you wanted to get me an awesome birthday present I would not object to anything on this site.

photojojo.com

(cough cough, I would love anyone forever if I got the black Polaroid camera cough cough.. ps I have a birthday in September!)

June's Positivity Blog

If I had to be honest, the only time I catch myself forcing myself to think positively is when I catch myself moping or having a ultra negative thought! But for the most part I've been thinking pretty positively! Even though this past month has been full of things that could seriously stomp on my positive streak I've been trying really hard to not think the worst of everything. 

A month ago I told you I had a job interview, I thought really positive on how it went and I got a job offer the next day! I was really happy with those results. So I've been a working lady for a month or so and it's been great being able to have something to do. 

I've realized that it helps being positive when you don't just think of yourself. Thinking of others instead of just how you're feeling really helps you realize how silly you may sound when you think about all the negativity in your life.

But that's about all I figured out this month... maybe a life changing moment will happen for July! 

I'm grateful for parents that help encourage me when I'm having off days & putting myself down

Until the next post :)

May's Positivity Blog

Not going to lie. I was on a positivity high... for the first 24 hours that I decided to be more positive. I had no idea how hard it was to be more positive let alone THINK more positively when I've seriously corrupted my brain over the years with all my darn negativity. To be honest, I have a lot of work to do. But I have all the time I need to be the person I want to be :) 

I have this terrible problem with letting things GO. Small things. Big things. Any sort of thing that has some sort of importance to me. Whether it's something I did that I have a hard time forgiving myself for, or if it's something someone else did. And to be honest, lately a lot of lame things have been happening that are all lumped in the same category which gets very frustrating. It's funny because I do not understand why I would want to be in the same state for months on months. I have a hard time with moving on because I don't know what the future holds so instead I cling on to something that is in the PAST. But the thing is, it's in the PAST! There's nothing I can do about it because now it's the present and the sun will come up again tomorrow, if God is willing, so I need to teach myself how to look forward for things that are to come. 

The best part is... the more positive I am about the things that are to come, the more positive those things will be! 

I am shadowing a photographer named Jon (You should check out his stuff.. it's REALLY good HERE) this summer and I went out a shoot at the Nationals Park! That experience really gave me a glimpse of what my future will be like if I keep myself positive and stop thinking negatively about what could or could not happen after college. Here's a few pictures from my crazy fun day.

This experience was much needed! It reminded me of how much I enjoy shooting. Granted this was my first shoot where I did not really know the people so I was very NERVOUS about whether or not I should interrupt their conversations so I could take some group shots (Hence the reason I got a lot of the back of people's heads and not too many pictures where they were actually posing for MY camera). But all and all I learned A LOT more about my camera that I didn't know before. I almost felt silly not knowing some of the stuff I didn't know, but I never felt nervous to ask. I can't wait for the next thing I tag along for.

I almost regretted coming home for the first few weeks of summer because I didn't have much to do. I didn't have anything I needed to come assist with and my friends had way later finals than me so they were not back in town yet. I was bored to tears and started breaking into old bad habits that I thought I was getting over. That began to get me more negative by the day. But, once I realized that I needed to keep myself busy to enjoy life, I started feeling alright. 

At the end of the day, my friends are back in town (who I never realize how much I miss until I reunite with them again), I got to go shoot for a full day in DC, I now have a job interview on Tuesday, and one of my closest friend's is getting married which I will be able to go to. I have a lot more positive things going on in my life than all the negative ones. 

I like to think to myself.. that ONE good positive thing can eliminate FIVE negative. Because when I'm out keeping myself busy doing the things I enjoy most, I don't even THINK about the negative things. I only think about how much I'm enjoying myself. Those are the moments I'm the happiest so why would I want to dwell on the negative? 
You just got to remember how you FEEL during those times where you are really enjoying life and KNOW that it is VERY POSSIBLE to live that way WHENEVER YOU WANT. No matter what trials you are going through... being positive heals everything.  

So if you're reading to get an update from April's positivity blog, the sum up is in the past month I've had struggles. The only thing I need to work on now is my thoughts.. because my actions depend very heavily on that. It's just a matter of making positive thoughts a habit. 

I'm grateful for the fun times I shared with my friends at Kings Dominion yesterday

Until the next post :) Stay positive! 

April's Positivity Blog

I've decided to start this new thing. I call it positive blog. 
Each month I am going to do a blog post on positive things that are going on in my life. 

I've realized that I have been the most negative Nancy for the past year and it's time for that to stop. I now have realized the reasoning behind the constant back to back negative outcomes for the past year & I'm finally saying STOP. 
My mom has been telling me about this documentary movie on Netflix called 'The Secret'. She would tell me to watch it every single time I would complain about how wrong my life seemed to be going. Today all she told me was "Alright, I'm going to hang up the phone now so you can watch that documentary..." and my response would be like "No wait... I have more to vent about......". She then said "Go watch it." So I was like ugh fine.. because it didn't seem like she was going to continue the conversation any further. 

I started watching this movie. I was a little skeptical at first because it seemed pretty cheesy and I was not positive if the people that were giving me a pep talk were real people who have done this, or actors. I looked up a lot of their names online while I watched and it was not fake. These people were real time/big time authors, doctors, psychologists etc. 
The movie went on to tell you about the 'secret' to how to be happy, successful, have good health, have good relationships with others, etc. The secret basically is 'The Law of Attraction'. If you send out thoughts into the universe of what you want it will inevitably happen. Done. You cannot doubt either because that only brings out negative thoughts, which brings out negative outcomes. They went on to explain that no matter what you think comes to be. For example, if you think of how much debt you're in, guess what is going to happen? More debt. The universe does not see that you 'don't' want debt. All it keeps hearing is you complaining about debt. So that's what it is giving you, because the more you put it out there, the more likely it is to happen. So say you don't want debt? Instead of saying how much you wish you weren't in debt and how you hate debt, think about getting more paychecks in the mail. You'll notice that the outcome will be more paychecks! 

Now I bet most of you think this is dumb. Trust me I did.. even when my mom explained that to me I was like 'Okay, whatever lady'. But, I'm starting to see why my life has been not so great lately! 
Anytime I would apply to get accepted into anything I tried to force my thoughts to not get it's hopes up just so I would not get hurt if I did not get accepted. Here's the thing. Saying that and putting those vibes in the universe pretty much got me there. Not accepted. & you know what? My feelings were still hurt even if my hopes weren't up. So why not just have my hopes up next time and put more positive vibes out there? I will get accepted. I will become what I want to become. 

I'm starting to see SO MUCH of my life in a different view. Positive people want to be around positive people. No one wants to be around a girl that mops and whines all the time. That's why I need to be more positive. 

So let's just say this. Use me as your guinea pig! If my life stays the same.. and nothing positive happens, then you don't have to try it for yourself. But if it does..... I'll be your new go-to real-life example : )

My Positive Thoughts:  
- I will become whatever I want to become. I want to become a professional photographer.. & and a dang good one at that!
- I will marry someone who fits all the qualities on the list I wrote down that I keep under my pillow
- Next school year will be fantastic
- The people I will meet in these upcoming months will change my life for the better

1 Thing I'm Grateful For:
My bed

I will put something that I'm grateful for after every blogpost from now on. 

& When it comes to the positive thoughts. I definitely need to work on it! After all I've been a poop for the past year... but it's never to late to start being the person I want to become.  

Until the next post :) 

Guess I'm Bored

So this is what I'll do. 

Cool. 

Just Let Me Cry

Just Let Me Cry

By: Hilary Weeks

I believe that everything happens for a reason

We’re not just tossed by the wind and left in the hands of fate

But sometimes life sends a storm that’s unexpected

And we’re forced to face our deepest pain.

And when I feel the heartache begin to pull me under

I dig my heels in deep and I fight to keep my ground

Still at times the hurt inside grows stronger

And there’s nothing I can do but let it out

So just let me cry

I know it’s hard to see

But the pain I feel isn’t going away today

So just let me cry

‘Til every tear has fallen

Don’t ask when and don’t ask why

Just let me cry

When I agreed that God could put this heart inside me

I understood that there would be a chance that it would break

But I know he knows exactly how I’m feeling

And I know in time he’ll take the pain away

But for now just let me cry

I know it’s hard to see

But the pain I feel isn’t going away today

So just let me cry

‘Til every tear has fallen

Don’t ask when and don’t ask why

Just let me cry

I have felt joy, the kind that makes my heart want to sing

And so my tears are not a surrender, I’ll feel that way again

But for now, for this moment

Just let me cry

I know it’s hard to see

But the pain I feel isn’t going away today

Just let me cry

Until every tear has fallen

Don’t ask when and don’t ask why

Just let me cry

I believe that everything happens for a reason

I have the biggest problem of just letting things go... I don't understand what's wrong with me. I'm a lost cause, I know. It'd be nice to know what my life is going to be like 10 years from now.. But for now just let me cry.