Monday, December 30, 2013

2013 Review.

2013 was quite the year!

As some of you might know, 2012 was one of my harder years. So I was welcoming 2013 with open arms! Hopeful for the future. A lot of things in the beginning of 2013 didn't go the way I was expecting at all (i.e. wanting to transfer schools but not getting accepted & trying to get into the BFA at USU and not getting accepted)

I also had decided to get through a problem that I had been keeping a secret for 7+ years. 
That was a huge one and I'm so glad I'm getting help for it now.

I feel like I was constantly put into situations this past year that are preparing me for what's to come in 2014. It just took me a while to realize that when I was in the moment. 

Don't you love looking back at the decisions you make and thinking to yourself "Oh! So that's why that happened" or "Thank God I made that decision even though it was the hardest thing in my life!"? I had nice handful of those in this past year that I am SO GRATEFUL for. 

This past year I've also learned the power of being a positive person. I believe that saying what you want and thinking about it really does make it come to be! I've had a lot of small things happen purely because I didn't drown myself in negativity like the way I used to. Granted, I'm still pretty bad at trying to stay positive ALL THE TIME but for a lot of the big things I really try my hardest! 

I finally let go of a lot of things that were holding me back for the LONGEST TIME. I've never felt better. 

I also met SO MANY amazing people in the past year that I will probably never forget. Each one of them have impacted my life for the better and I know great things are going to come in the future because of it. 

There are times I feel like I put myself down when things aren't going the way I planned it out in my head. I'm sure we all do that. But for the most part I'm so happy with WHO I AM. I love every detail about my life, even the hard parts.

& Let's get real. Everyone loves a good Caitlin story about how something didn't work out. Because it's 10x more funny when I tell that story with all my crazy 'what I was thinking in that moment' inputs. That, and I'm super dramatic when I tell stories. So these tough spots that I'm trying to get through now, are just a funny story that I'll tell to my family and friends later. 

God really does love and care about me (and everyone)... and it took me a while to fully grasp that when I was going through tough times. I know he has a plan for me and it's just working its way through right to the precise seconds. 

All I can say about 2013 is, bravo. You did me well. 

And guess what everyone? I have a really good feeling about what's to come in 2014.
You excited?! Because I sure am! 

Until the next post :) 

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

October&Novemeber Positivity Blog!!


I'm terrible. Let's just say October and November just RAN AWAY FROM ME. It came and was gone in a blink of an eye... 
I thought about what I could say for my positivity blog post... and nothing SUPER inspirational came! 

Let's just say that I KNOW that being positive works. First hand. 

In the beginning of the school year I was talking to my roommate Cami in her room. I told her point blank that I was going to have a date by the time 'pumpkin carving date season' comes around. I didn't say maybe or hopefully, I said it was going to happen. I didn't know how or had any idea who but I knew it was going to happen. 

October rolled around... and then the end of October rolled around. And still nothing. I was starting to get worried that it was not going to happen, but whenever I thought like that I would say "NO! It's going to happen.. I still got a time! A week and a half left!" 

And low and behold... I had a pumpkin date! True story.

My positivity is being put to the ultimate test right now and will be during these last two semesters. But now that I know that saying things that you want verbally and feeling the joy in having it when you get it.. it makes it worth doing! Even when its hard.