A lot of people told me, that when a dog really loves you... they keep holding on to that little string of life. They aren't ready to let go until you are. Pepper held on for two years longer than a normal dog with diabetes. Today was the day though....that we had to let him go.
I remember all those times he would bark and everything and everyone outside when I walked him. I remember, once, when mom wasn't home, my sister and I started howling until he would howl with us (we took advantage of this moment because lord knows mom would have told us to shut up if she were home). I remember whenever a firetruck drove by he would howl along with it. I remember how he would always stare at out the front window and there was always a nose mark from where he was. When we had our old car Willy, he could hear it from the house and was there at the front door when we got home. I remember how he was pretty much our alarm system. He would bark when someone he didn't know was around & when the doorbell rang.
I remember how in high school I used him so much for photography because he had such a great profile.
I remember how he wasn't what I would call the most obedient dog (especially most recently)... but I loved him unconditionally none the less.
I remember one Christmas, how he fell in love with our Christmas doormate. We kept it out for the rest of the year and on because he loved laying on it so much
It was hard to see how my peppy pup was now not so peppy this summer... It's even hard not to see him in the house at all. All day, he's all I could think about. It was hard to walk downstairs and not hear his clicking paws on the kitchen floor. It was hard seeing the place where his crate used to be, no longer there. It was hard seeing all his toys but not him. When I went downstairs to grab something from the back room and I was expecting to see Pepper jump up from me turning on the lights... but he wasn't there.
My heart hurts. I loved and will forever love this dog of mine. He probably won't be my last dog, but he'll always have a special place in my heart as my first dog.
I love you BaeBaeBee.
Rest in Peace. September 15, 2001-August 1,2012