Patience

Patience.
There were two talks on patience this past week at church and I felt like they were honestly aimed towards me... that doesn't happen too often.
Patience is something I definitely need to work on. I need to know that everything happens for a reason and I need to be patient to understand why. I know 10 years from now I'll look back at my life, happy with where I'm at and understand why everything in my past happened. I just got to be patient until that time comes.

Being home has been good though :) I can't necessarily say that I miss Utah... more like the people there. The people you're with makes the place in my opinion. It's different being home! I can drive for one thing, which is really nice not having to feel like I got to mooch off my friends every five minutes to get anywhere. I forgot how innocent I feel when I'm around my friends out here. But I like that I'm starting to think the way I used to before I lived in Utah. I've caught up with all my closest friends and it's been good!

Until the next post :)

I know I'm not the best singer

But I felt like putting this up anyways... Recorded just about 5 minutes ago.

I cried.

Yes it's true...
I cried [for days]when you left
I cried when my roommates gave me their last hugs
I cried when the plane took off from Chicago
I cried in the car ride while talking to my dad
I cried when I saw my mom after so long
I cried when I told her the stories

... It's sad because I'm not even close to the 'crying type' but it seems like the phrase "I cried" has popped up in a lot of my sentences if I had to describe the last two-three weeks or so. I think I should be all cried out by now/for the next year. I hope.

You know what I hate?

Moving. I hate it. Today has just been full of on and off packing and cleaning. Moving makes me sad. Moving makes me remember every memory all in one big lump & it hurts. I'm torn. Going home is the right thing. I just got to remember that. I have this hurt feeling every time I leave Logan on that shuttle bus. But I'll make sure to be strong this time around.

Sometimes the unexpected happens... & sometimes it's not anything close to what you wanted to happen. But, you just got to keep remembering that things will all work out. If not the way you want it, at least it will for the best. That's what I have been telling myself at least for the past two weeks or so...

Study Break?

I think yes... I've probably take 10 min breaks every 20 minutes... Oh gosh. Good luck to me...

P.S. Finally got a chance to see a Logan sunset today before I leave for the summer... it was beautiful. I'll miss it here...