Hi.
I just wanted to take a second and let you know that I'm bringing back my positivity monthly blog posts and I'm really excited about it.
I decided to update my whole blog and make it exciting for me to come back to working on. Not that talking about how much of a grumpy goose I've been isn't exciting and all but... ;)
With that being said, I do need to be honest with everyone that is reading this. I really struggle with being positive. It got to the point where it was so bad that I couldn't even think of one thing I could be proud to talk about why I enjoyed 2015. I could sit here and list you a million reasons why I have the right to be a downer all the time but that would only continue to give life to the negative fire that should be burned out.
But let me get vulnerable with you for a moment. I graduated college and felt like a loser. Yup that's right.. a LOSER. How could someone who just completed a huge milestone in their life feel like a loser for such a wonderful accomplishment? And that's where the negative thoughts come in. Me telling myself I'm not good enough and that I graduated with a useless degree and that's why I couldn't find a job, how I didn't get married in college when about 80% of the people I knew did, me actually disliking people who I didn't even know for their success and happiness when I for some reason was not finding it... but you want to know the crazy part that's so similar in all these scenarios?
They were all just THOUGHTS.
Gross thoughts that were eating me up from the inside out. How did I get to this point? Because these thoughts are not my reality. I'm not a loser and I don't have a useless degree, it's ok that I didn't find me a man in college and haven't gotten married yet, and it's ok that that other people are finding success!
IT'S OK. Stop beating yourself up. JUST STOP.
Here's what's interesting... I believe that even if I don't believe all those phrases right this second, me just saying them/writing them down is already a step in a more positive direction.
Write down your thoughts and replace the negative with the good. I feel like it lifts a gross feeling off of ya, which I'm all for! I'm hopeful that these blog posts will help me take steps in the right direction that can help me live a fuller life. I'm also hopeful that if anything, maybe it'll help someone else who struggles with negativity in their own mind as well.
So here we go... 2016! Let's do this.
