Ahhhh...

I just ordered the cutest bathing suits from Delias! I can't wait for them to come! I'm probably going to be hitting the pool a lot with my friend Katherine this summer. Ahhh, I've been itching to tan ever since I've been home in this warm weather, so I cannot wait to hit the pool. I really want to go to the beach soon too!!

I really want to do more outdoorsie things. The other day I went to my friend Tamara's house to roast marshmallows with all my close friends from high school! The only thing is... we couldn't keep the fire burning for long. Love those boys to death, but they're nothing like them Utah boys who are like BORN knowing how to make fires. It was pretty hilarious and way fun!

My first day at work was alright. I feel like the only thing I really learned though was how to blow up the balloons. It kind of sucks because I don't know how to help the customers when they come up to the balloon counter. Hopefully they'll actually teach me that part because I feel like the girl I was shadowing didn't want to be there at all, so teaching me how to do stuff was the last thing she probably wanted to do. All I know though, is that probably by the end of this, I REALLY know how to tie balloons. 'It's just for the summer' is what I keep telling myself.

So far so good..

I finally found a job! I'm going to be working at Party City this summer. I applied Thursday, and they called me the next day for an interview, I went in and BOOM I had the job. I was honestly in shock how quick it was. I start on Tuesday, during the later shift for training (because less people shop around that time). Hopefully i'll get the hang of things pretty quick and easily. I'm really nervous though. I've never been a cashier before so I don't really know what i'm doing. I'm just mostly worried about messing up and pissing off customers that are 'in a rush' or have a short temper/short patience span. Quite frankly, I don't even know where to go on the first day. I'm supposed to go in and find them, but I don't know if I should go in the back room without permission or be weird and ask someone for help. I mean you they got to give me a break right since i'm new? Hopefully i'll make just the right amount of cash this summer. This job will also help me stop sleeping till noon and wasting my day, because now i'll be doing something more productive.

In my down time i'm reading this book called Life as We Knew It. It's actually kind of freaky. It's a story of a girl who lives through this catastrophe on earth. A meteor hits the moon out of orbit, causing it to move closer to earth and cause a lot of natural catastrophes. Movies and books that talk about that usually do freak me out. On top of that, i'm scared of the moon... So the fact that the scary moon is doing all that stuff freaks me out more. But yet, I can't put it down. I really want to know what happens to this girl and her family. I want to make sure she survives(even though I know she isn't real). I looked in the back of the book and see that there are two more books that go with this one.. so that means more trials for her and her family! Ah the books that interest me sometimes....

I've also been watching episodes of this old TV series called Summerland. I already watched all of season one, but now that i've got this book distracting me I probably won't know what'll happen next for a while. Ha! I feel like such hermit! I need Meredith to come home or something so that I can take a day trip to DC! I also can't wait for the pool to open, because I will not be going back to school pale a pasty. I need to TAN!

Not such an exciting summer so far. No worries though, I'll make it happen ;)

So... Now What?

So, I've been home in Maryland for a week and 3 days. But honestly, I just really wish I was back in Logan. Weird right? When I was there, all I wanted was to be home, and now that i'm home, all I want is to be in Logan. I think that's how life is all the time though. For the first time in my life I actually wish I lived in Utah.... (trust me this dream will fade). But I'm honestly so jealous of how a lot of the friends I made this year are from Utah so they're only a half an hour or an hour or two away!! For me? Oh no big deal, I'm just a day and 10 hours away!! That is... if I drove non-stop. Anyways, I really just miss being able to walk out my door to go socialize with my friends whenever. Also, most of the lovely boys going on missions are having their farewells in Utah. I've had to decline so many invites... it's so sad. It's also weird not living in a college town. Just going to Wal-Mart, I would see people i've seen from campus or just in general, people my age. I'm really over high school too. Just seeing anyone in high school makes me have to look back on when I acted the way they do now. I don't like that. Hopefully the summer will get more exciting, because right now.. I'm missing college A LOT.

I also need a job!! I need to be able to pay for my housing next year and if I don't get a job ASAP I don't know what i'm going to do. The thing is... I'm actually a little scared. The only jobs around here are mostly cashier positions. I've never worked a cashier so i'm scared I may screw up and annoy the people in line. I really don't want that to happen, so i've been looking for jobs that don't have too many people. So far, nothing. I've applied for jobs like Hallmark, CVS, Pier One, Potomac Gardens etc... but so far nothing. I'm going to probably end up working at that place of fast moving cashier work like K-Mart or a grocery store. So I guess I need to suck it up and just go for it.

I'm really just missing the college life. Having to act grown-up sucks.